Have you ever feel like me tonight?

I feel frustrated.

Frustrated that Jason never has enough time for me when I want him to.
Frustrated that I have to understand and there's nothing I can do but understand.
Frustrated that the romance I want ain't coming from him.
Frustrated that the romance I got is short lived and is so ambigious.
Frustrated that I have to learn to forgive that but still never hard hearted enough to hate it.
Frustrated that I am clearly in love with the hazy figure but still not waking up.
Frustrated that I find everything is NOT at my side when I wake up.
Frustrated that I fell back to dream again and do the whole damn cycle again.
Frustrated that I can't scream.
Frustrated that I can only type this out.

If I am going to hear any lecture from you, any words at all, I will scream!

GODAMNIT!

I feel like breaking a few plates, tearing stacks of papers, singing my lungs out, jumping down from flight of stairs (and survived.),crying!
But I have not plates to break, no papers to tear, no room for singing, no stairs to jump (without surviving a fructure or sprain if heaven is kind on me) and really, no tears to cry.

Don't let me hear anything from anyone else. Damn.

A hug would suffice. But not from you who took it away and make me feel the way I feel tonight.